greytgirl Posted September 15, 2008 Report Share Posted September 15, 2008 The 14th September of last year, a year ago to the date yesterday, but the day was Friday 12th September...my life became pretty meaningless, apart from my daughter I see no joy anymore in my life and the thought of spending it without my Mum fills me with dread and fear..my wonderful Mum was so poorly for so long, diabetes the terrible disease that caused it all...her heart condition, her kidneys, her loss of eye sight and eventually the gangrene that took her leg and had began in her other foot... she deserved to be taken. to rest but to us left behind the pain still rages through our hearts, below are 2 verses that hit spot on how I feel...I go through stages, sometimes I cannot control my grief and all I do is cry, sleep and draw into myself but sometimes I "pretend" that Mum is sat at home or in the hospital still (somewhere she was more than home) and I become numb to the reality, so the 2nd poem is what people may think, that Im ok, but inside Im completely crushed and alone...my daughter, Katie was best friends with Mum, they ADORED each other and this also kills me, I see her crying and wanting her Nanny Pat...gone FAR too soon aged 64. anyway enough rambling. thanks for allowing me to share. Mum I love you with every ounce of me, you were EVERYTHING to me and I will never feel complete happiness ever again or see things the same, they dont hold the same beauty or feelings they used to...nothing ever will now you're not here to talk to about them..I only hope you know how brave, precious, loyal and just BEAUTIFUL you are to me, to all of us please be at peace now, you deserve it SO very much. Legacy of Love. A wife, a mother, a nanny too, This is the legacy we have from you. You taught us love and how to fight, You gave us strength, you gave us might. A stronger person would be hard to find, And in your heart, you were always kind. You fought for us all in one way or another, Not just as a wife not just as a mother. For all of us you gave your best, Now the time has come for you to rest. So go in peace, you've earned your sleep, Your love in our hearts, we'll eternally keep. Don't Think I Do Not Grieve by Brenda Penepent Don't think I do not feel; because you see no tears. A river rages deep inside of grief, and loss, and fears. Just because I do not cry now, don't think my heart's not broken. I keep inside the misery of words not to be spoken. Sometimes I smile, or crack a joke, so you won't see the pain; or notice how my hands will shake, or how I've gone insane. Each time I chance to think of her, my heart is ripped asunder. The loss I feel is mine alone. you will not see my thunder. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
owl Posted September 15, 2008 Report Share Posted September 15, 2008 (edited) I feel for you. It seems incredibly cruel that your mum had all possible complications of diabetes. Edited September 15, 2008 by owl Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mooandboo Posted September 15, 2008 Report Share Posted September 15, 2008 (edited) Your Mum was beautiful and I can promise you that in time you'll see the world again through her eyes before she was ill and her words will be with you at just the right moments Huge :GroupHug: for you and Katie Edited September 15, 2008 by mooandboo Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JACKYSIAN Posted September 15, 2008 Report Share Posted September 15, 2008 I'm so very sorry, I can't imagine you pain. Your mum looks a lovely woman. Your daughter is the image of her. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kathyw Posted September 15, 2008 Report Share Posted September 15, 2008 What a beautiful woman your Mum was - inside and outside. Your daughter is the image of her. You will see the beauty in the world again when the rawness of your grief eases. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
collies r best Posted September 15, 2008 Report Share Posted September 15, 2008 Dont know what to say so tons of sent. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
phoebejo Posted September 15, 2008 Report Share Posted September 15, 2008 Thinking of you and your daughter Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Red Rotties Posted September 15, 2008 Report Share Posted September 15, 2008 (edited) My mums been gone eleven years at the end of the month, I still miss her, but, I talk to her every day and I feel her around me when I am at my lowest, and at my happiest. Time makes it easier, but never better and you are never old enough to lose your mum. Edited September 15, 2008 by Red Rotties Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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yena Posted September 15, 2008 Report Share Posted September 15, 2008 (edited) You don't have to pretend that your Mums with you. She is with you all the time, she is in your heart Edited September 15, 2008 by yena Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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BillyMalc Posted September 15, 2008 Report Share Posted September 15, 2008 No words, just :GroupHug: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Spins4me Posted September 15, 2008 Report Share Posted September 15, 2008 (edited) Just sending your mum will always be with you. Please can someone get rid of the little red message for that someone has left for me (see below) - it is funny but not appropriate on some posts - ta! Edited September 15, 2008 by Spins4me Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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