I'm really sorry for putting my foot in it, Wendy. I haven't kept up at all with RMF
Reading your post reminds me of me. I was the same about losing Reggie, exactly the same. It was all too sudden and I really struggled, still do, to move on. You describe your feelings in the same way as I feel so I can only offer you another and say you're in good company, if that's any comfort.