Elaine

I feel a bit bad because I got the vibe that his spark was sparked, but mine lay dormant. You can't force these things tho - either it's there or it isn't.

Honestly, it happened. I knew going to that restaurant might be dodgy, as Ro and his Dad often go there for a takeway on a Sunday night. But they were earlier than I thought they might be Ah well, it was interesting

I know - I found it bloody hilarious, he felt a bit awkward, Ro was horrified and his father didn't know where the feck to look

I tried and tried to kindle my spark, but alas, it was hiding. He is a really nice bloke though and I'm glad I went. What you DON'T want on your first date though is to be sitting in an indian restaurant and for your son and ex partner to walk in. Which is exactly what happened That caused a nice little awkward moment, I can tell you

I am home. Date was a really nice guy, good company etc - but sadly, no spark on my part. I think we'll be friends, unless he wants more then we won't be

Oooh, Mr Date has just phoned to ask if I can meet him a bit earlier as his Salsa class finished early. I've not spoken to him on the phone before, believe it or not, but he's got a nice voice

I'm refusing to stress about it. It's not like I have money to burn, but I do have enough for my rent and that's the only thing that worried me. I've spent too long working myself into a state about stuff and I'm not doing it anymore. It's not going to ruin my weekend

I've phoned them - apparently someone has decided to take the full balance on my credit card off my account. With no warning. Nothing I can do about it till morning - and then I'm going to create merry hell. I posted a cheque to them last week for £200 ffs. There's still enough in my account for my rent, so that's the main thing, but I'm not happy.

Holy sh*t. My bank statement came on Friday. I've just opened it. There's a withdrawal from my account for £630.02. I didn't authorise it or know anything about it. Oh feck

Good morning I have 2 big zits which will be accompanying me on my date later Sod's law. S'okay, my date has been warned and he promised to take the pizz I have no idea what to wear. Smart casual. I predict I'll be trying on 37 different outfits later............

I agree the second photo is fantastic Lydia looks like she has soooo much character

Some rather lovely ones of Mrs Melps there And Wendy, WTF were you saying as you were groping the balloons?

I didn't realise you were so diddy!!

Oooh, nice frocks - love yours, Ellie And Charis is stunning! And I can see the necklace I made Snow Umm Wendy, are you a midget? You look minute in between Sarah and Allan number something

Glad you had fun, Wendy My date is going ahead tomorrow And instead of being a gibbering wreck about it, I'm looking forward to it

I have had a really nice evening Even without alcohol The sh*t is going to hit the fan next week at work - specially if I'm asked my opinion on how the sales administrator's leaving 'do' went. Admin Manager phoned her to say she hoped she like the flowers. What flowers? Admin Manager had filled in a P.O. on Monday and the Office Manager had said she'd sort it out. She didn't. Nor did she sort out the cake. I have to spend time with Admin Manager on Tuesday and will tell her in no uncertain terms that I would never consider working for an organisation who treats a long term staff member the way sales administrator was treated today. Urgh! But I still had a fun night. I invited one of the now-departed temps round for coffee sometime. I yam being sociable

I'm home for lunch. The girl I'm taking over from leaves today. Office Manager hadn't organised the usual cakes and yummy things, then fecked off to a meeting when everyone was supposed to gathering. She left one of the other temps to hand over the gifts Turned out that the yummy things hadn't even been ordered from the hotel. Mad panic later and we got something organised. FFS, the girl who's leaving has been there 8 years, and this is how they treat her at the end? My tolerance for donkey-braying Office Manager is rapidly disappearing. But we're all going out tonight for an italian meal and then to a pub with karaoke I'm REALLY looking forward to it, even though I'm not drinking. I haven't been out in more months than I care to think about

He is - not sure if it will be Sunday, but looking that way

I might have one of those too Driving away from my house this morning, I had to stop on the road. To let a peacock past There are lots of birds here. There's lots of wildlife here. Pheasants, partridges, grouse, swans, ducks, squirrels, deer.......but a peacock is a new on on me. I have no fecking clue where it came from but it's a beauty. That'll explain the strange noises I heard yesterday evening then

Today for the first time, I came face to face with Ro's father's girlfriend. She scampered away and got someone else to serve me but not before giving me evils I couldn't quite figure it out why - after all, if I hadn't left him, she wouldn't have got her somewhat skanky and money grabbing claws into him, would she? It wasn't until Ro and I departed the shop that Ro confessed that he'd found a load of her clothes at his father's house......so he'd taken the scissors to them I did give him the 'that's not a nice thing to do' talk, but water off a duck's back. He said he did it about 2 weeks ago and not one word has been said about it.

Urgh. Creepy P.O.F. guy won't leave me alone. He 'dismissed' me rather harshly after a few emails - didn't bother me because I just wasn't feeling anything other than being polite. Within 24 hours he 'regretted' his decision and now he's bombarding me with emails apologising and begging me to 'forgive' him because he's just SO attracted to me in every way (after about 3 emails - umm, yes), and he misses talking to me. FFS. Nice cup of desperation, anyone?

Congrats on the job, Billy I swear I;m going to git the office manager soon. She brays like a donkey when she laughs, her clothes are about 4 sizes too small (which, when you have a belly bigger than your boobs is never a good look), she doesn't know what she's doing and today she asked me how to work out two thirds of an amount! FFS, were you off the years they did maths in school then? And breathe. My house is minging. And I shall have to take a photo later of Monty's latest attempt to minimise my footwear wardrobe......

Blimey Mel, where did Sam's curly hair come from? He's getting all growed up. I am home for a late lunch. Ex's stuff has gone, he's returned my key so that's that chapter done and dusted. I don't know if he'll ever find peace from his demons, but I hope he does.

Morning. It's a gorgeous day here today. Ex is picking up his stuff this morning and I feel absolutely fine about it. I did what I could, I acted with integrity and I've let go with dignity - can't really do much more than that Now, if I can just get through the day at work without inwardly seething at downright incompetence, everything will be hunkydory

Men who email me with remarks like "Hi Sexy!" or "Well, Ms Gorgeous" make me really uncomfortable. You don't know me, you haven't met me, so rein it in, ffs. Am I supposed to be all flattered and giggly? Sure compliments are nice, but that's just bleurgh.