celeste Posted December 13, 2011 Author Report Share Posted December 13, 2011 Thanks guys I don't know if it's because I've been here before with Celeste all those years ago, but I feel quite at peace with it all. The big balloon is having a kip in the diningroom, I don't know if it's my imagination but he appears to be breathing a bit slower which is good, Which ever cancer this is it's galloping along at a fast pace, even a week ago he was still able to come for a walk, but although he's still willing, I wouldn't risk it, he's so slow and I worry he'd collapse. If he can get enough respite that he can come for a walk again I'll be delighted. I've only had him for 2 years, and if I had the choice again knowing what was ahead I'd still take him, he and Spud are such great friends, Ben's had a ball living here. His old owners ( who are paying part of his vets bill !...how kind is that ! ) loved him dearly but were quite strict with him, not hard in any way but very definite rules, he was only here 6 months and he was scoffing left overs off the plate and cadging food in the kitchen, his old owners would have been mortified . Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gooster Posted December 13, 2011 Report Share Posted December 13, 2011 to you both, sorry the news wasn't better Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
celeste Posted December 13, 2011 Author Report Share Posted December 13, 2011 Handsome boy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
houndzrus Posted December 13, 2011 Report Share Posted December 13, 2011 so sorry to hear your news He certainly is a gorgeous lad and he has had a great home with you. :GroupHug: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
merledogs Posted December 14, 2011 Report Share Posted December 14, 2011 Such a hansum boy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
greys mum Posted December 14, 2011 Report Share Posted December 14, 2011 I am so sorry that you didn't get better news. I know that Ben will be spoilt rotten for the time that he has left. He is a really handsome lad. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
celeste Posted December 14, 2011 Author Report Share Posted December 14, 2011 He does seem a bit better today, he doesn't appear to be in any pain and is breathing easier, but I think tomorrow will be the decider, I'm desperate not to have him suffer but equally desperate not to say goodbye. he's certainly not himself, although he did have a bloody good woof at the nutty Vizla that lives across the road when it barked at him . Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
loobie Posted December 15, 2011 Report Share Posted December 15, 2011 :GroupHug: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Yantan Posted December 15, 2011 Report Share Posted December 15, 2011 He does seem a bit better today, he doesn't appear to be in any pain and is breathing easier, but I think tomorrow will be the decider, I'm desperate not to have him suffer but equally desperate not to say goodbye. he's certainly not himself, although he did have a bloody good woof at the nutty Vizla that lives across the road when it barked at him . I hope the decision comes to you as clearly as the one I made for George did. You are both in my thoughts Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pendlewitch Posted December 15, 2011 Report Share Posted December 15, 2011 I'm so sorry about Ben, what a beautiful boy! :GroupHug: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
celeste Posted December 16, 2011 Author Report Share Posted December 16, 2011 Vet will be coming this afternoon to send the big guy on his way. he's comfortable but has no quality of life, he looks tired and fed up , he can't walk very far before he has to stop for a breather. His appetite has returned a bit though, thanks to the steroids, he had flapjacks, home made cheese scone, ice cream, fish supper, pan fried lambs heart, he has some steak mince and ham for today. I'll miss him so much, so will Spud, they were such good pals, I wouldn't change a single thing, my only regret is he couldn't get off his lead, he did a bit in the field across from us ( now known as Ben's Field ) I went round the fence when I first got him to make it Ben proof, so he did get some free running, but I would have loved to have seen him fly across the hill side with Spud. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Yantan Posted December 16, 2011 Report Share Posted December 16, 2011 Oh Jane I am so very sorry I know only too well the heartbreak you are feeling. I will be thinking of both of you today Wishing Ben a peaceful passing and a safe journey to the Bridge. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Greygal Posted December 16, 2011 Report Share Posted December 16, 2011 So sorry you are to lose your lovely lad but at least you can take comfort from knowing you let him go when the time was right and didn't make him struggle on for longer because you didn't love him enough to let him go. I'm sure you have made many happy memories over the time he spent with you and they will make you smile again in the future. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Anne Grose Posted December 16, 2011 Report Share Posted December 16, 2011 Jane, my heart is breaking with you. But what a wonderful person you are to be able to send him on his way with his dignity intact and without being in agony, You will have some wonderful memories and in time you will look back with fondness on your time with him. All my family sends love and hugs for you this afternoon. Anne, Nick, Barty & Chloe Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
celeste Posted December 16, 2011 Author Report Share Posted December 16, 2011 Thank you so much for the support , I've just got him some sausages, what dog doesn't love a sausage ?, a couple of Bueno's and fudge doughnuts, the three of them can have a big slap up beano before he goes. My friend janette will be coming along at lunch time, she's a reiki master and has been giving Ben treatments all through this, so she'll be giving him reiki whilst he's being pts to aid him on his journey to the bridge, although knowing Ben he'll be off like a comet and won't be stopping at any bridge, which is as it should be, it's always said of TM's that they love being with their people, it's just that they think being with their people means being on the same continent . As I keep saying to him, he doesn't need to suffer for me, that's my job. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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